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Use Me

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This song has been on repeat in the BFLYsouljah household for about three weeks. I am obsessed with choreographing a video for this. I went to see what was out there and I fell upon the two below, which are the best by far! Trust me, I’ve done the leg work.

The male video is so on point and not only is it badass they are cute as well.

Yet, like expected the ladies hold it down and blow the male choreography out of the water.

Whenever I listen to this song I think of the man who holds my heart, thoughts, soul, and body. I have tried to date other men, and even though this man and I have yet to date and are just friends, I can only fantasize about how beautiful it will be when the walls come down and we do consummate  our love. I can imagine we will both be so nervous…

I intend on performing my choreography for him, either to this song or “Arch N Point.”

Which choreography do you like the best?

“Use Me” By. Miguel

Sedate me… Salacious, salty, & sweet.
I’m overwhelmed by tasty thoughts of you.
Daydream… my body’s waving a white flag.
Take me, yeah, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down.
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Sensation… as I place my tongue on your lips
You overwhelmed by everything I do, oh!
Curse me, yea, with such a beautiful nightmare!
Don’t wake me! Yea, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound, yea,
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down, yea!
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Blissful collision as our bodies tangle, intertwine
Biting your lip (uh-uh) baby, put me inside
Crucified thoughts, tender moments on a ricochet
Purging my mind of the power I own
Fall into forever. Just forgive me.
I was faithless. Danger in your eyes.
Baby, you can devour me!
Defile me, yeah!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
If you’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.
[x3]
Use me.

words

Aside

words strewn across a paper

none greater than the sounds of your voice

melancholy

drowned in vats of wine

clouded illusion through the haze

warmth lost from the absence of your touch

the fire has dwindled into a mere flicker

we once thrived in the others presence

where has the love gone, I still feel it

foolishly I cling, shreds of hope

fairytaleonearth

xox{ohm}

-Latoya aka BFLYsouljah

Distinguished Woman

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Distinguished Woman
It has been a very epic fall into the Autumn chill here in Seattle. I have made my shorts last, by wearing tights, yet soon I will no longer be able to do such a thing. So, here is my latest inspiring polyvore board. I absolutely love this Burberry Prorsum trench coat! It falls into the new, HOT burgundy trend, yet still holds it’s own as a classic, that will forever be timeless. I envision wearing little to nothing underneath the trench with the must have Givenchy Boots. I absolutely must have them, do you think Santa will bring them to me? I have been an extremely good girl this year. I love the contrast of the turquoise, sea green clutch. The necklace begs to be seen with my little black slip dress, that is in creation. I am finding much needed inspiration in the online realm, and plan on taking my skills to the next level. There will be a post soon, about my grand scheme and exciting new plans. Until then, What do you most covet this fall? Leave your comments below, I really do love to hear what it is that is trending in your realm.
XOX{ohm}
Glitter and Buttterfly kisses
-Latoya aka BFLYsouljah aka BFLY mama

fearful fall

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It has been a really long time since writing a post, or for that matter writing anything personal lately. All that I have been doing is school, work or business related. Most people would think that my fashion business is personal. Yet, what I am learning is that my business is far less personal then I would have claimed to know 6 weeks ago. Life is always overwhelming and if it wasn’t for my son and friends, I might let it consume me.

I have been hustling for 30 years, yet the last 3.5 years have been the most challenging. Raising a child is really hard work, probably the hardest work I have done in my life. The hardest part for me is allowing for my dreams to take a longer course than anticipated. I sit here in my room trying to take a grasp on anything. I fear I am spinning out of control with emotions. Mainly fear, which is the one emotion I don’t allow to consume or enter me. Yet, it is back.

I fear that given all that I have accomplished and all that I strive to accomplish, what if the emptiness is still there. I fear that my cowardice approach to a situation, may have been the cause of my suffering. I fear that my road is filled with potholes. The most frightful idea is that he wont love me the way I need him to love me, and I will pretend that it doesn’t hurt.

I sat with a friend and watched as her fears consumed her. I’ve watched as she has held onto that which is wrong. I’ve watched as she speaks one thought all the while thinking another. I’ve watched with my eyes wide open, only to realize that her’s are shut. I’ve watched without pity or shame but with understanding all too much. I’ve asked her the questions I’ve been too scared to ask myself and answered them too, when asked in return. The FEAR that consumes me is that which I see in her, projected through me.

I sometimes ponder in the deepest darkest hours if that which I want is that which I need.

Yet, with him I have never questioned my want over need, cause that which I need is for him to want me.

xoxohm*

Latoya Simone Shaw

Manifestation of Romantic affairs

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Manifestation of Romantic affairs

Sass Bide strapless dress
$730 - net-a-porter.com

Christian louboutin heels
$895 - barneys.com

18 karat gold ring
$21,605 - barneys.com

80s jewelry
$900 - aloharag.com
Given my recent overwhelming life, I am in dire need of a romantic getaway. I could even use the company of a man that wants to wait on me hand and foot (and yes, I will return the luxury). Where shall I go, and with whom. Stay tuned! 

analog girl in a digital world

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ERYKAH BADU

It seems that some of us have forgotten about one of the Queens of hip-hop, MS. Neo-Soul herself, Erykah Badu. Erykah happens to be one of the most freshest, righteous womyn to rome this planet earth. the other day, one of my favorite people, Jeremiah Buren and I were chillin at the BFLYsouljah Studio/SHAW residence listening to MS.Badu while watching her videos on youtube. Which Jeremiah stated was one of the most epic things to do on a Friday. We were so amazed at her raw talent (JereMIAH, was speechless) and how she is bringing forth collective consciousness on a extreme level. It isn’t a surprise that there would soon come a time that I speak/write/flow about my infatuation with Erykah. It is hard to place words on how much I would love to sit and listen to MS.Badu spit her lyrical genius upon my ears. Yet, I shall try…

My infatuation all started the moment I heard the sweet, sultry lyrical poetry from Baduizm in my favorite record store, Hungry Ear Records. Growing up in a small town on an Island this happened to be one of the most illest spots to work or just hang out. I probably had a crush on almost everyone whom worked there (just shows I have been a lovable loving person since conception), so let’s just say I was around a lot. Especially given that my weekly guitar lessons were upstairs, I must have been their best and favorite customer. Anyway, back to MS. Badu, I remember when I heard her sing “Tyrone” I knew I was a fan for life!!! I instantly wanted to be just like her (mind you, I was a young impressionable teen), luckily Erykah is a mother first and foremost and it is her destiny to reach all of life’s children in the most uplifting spiritually positive way. So, she was/is one of the best role models.

Erykah’s natural beauty is what really started this infatuation. When she arrived on the musical scene she was stocked with a head full of locs. She wore the most amazing natural flowing garments and she preached the love of oneself and to put yourself first, and to pick your friends like you pick your fruit (which I am very selective as to what I put in my living temple). I still listen to Erykah as if It were my first time listening to her.

I am constantly surprised by the  amount of amazingness this woman exudes. I strive to live my life in a way that has such an effect on people as does MS. Badu. Her affect is mainly positive & uplifting, yet many people are offended by the fact that Ms. Badu has 3 children, by 3 different men, whom she has never married. It’s funny to me how, because she isn’t married to their fathers, she is looked down upon by many. I mean the woman is a spectacular mother, she provides for all of her children, she is happy, she once was in love with the fathers of her children, and the fathers are present in their children’s lives, yet people still look down upon her. This baffles me, given that there are many people whom are married with children, yet they are very unhappy. Or their are the really wealthy, whom have children, yet never spend anytime with them. The American society is very judgemental and are filled with an abundant amount of hyprocrisey.

Personally, I am not on the band wagon for more children. The idea is nice, yet my idea is to build a Fashion Empire and as selfish as it may seem, I am not equipped to give the amount of love and attention as I have given and do give to Orion as I would another child (I mean at times I feel extremely guilty that I am unable at this time to give Orion my undivided attention whenever he asks for it). Now, given that I am a single parent, this could change when my spiritual partner and I meet. Yet, I admire Erykah in doing her and continuing to love, amongst the many heartbreaks.

Taking a chapter from Erykah’s book, I am going to open my heart again. I am going to continue to build my empire and do me. Peace be with you!

xoxohm*

Latoya Simone Shaw

what is love?

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Today has been a day of testament to my patience. instead of bogging you down with the details, let’s just say that boy am I thankful that I am such an optimistic creature. On another note,  I have decided that instead of allowing myself to lie about my feelings to a certain someone, that I would call him and tell him directly. Well, I got his voicemail. I left him a message to call me, yet who knows if I will hear back from him today. ANY-way, I have not finished the dress. This is part of my frustration with the mess of life that has transpired today. I will be done by the beginning of next week, yet it still puts me a week behind. Especially because school starts on Monday. I am sometimes really envious of the people that everything just falls into place so easy for them. It has always been a struggle for me. Let’s talk about love for instance, it seems I attract boys, could it be cause I look a lot younger than I actually am, or is it that the male species seems to mature at a slower pace then womyn? I made out with a BOY on Monday (which is a big thing for me, cause the last time I really made out with someone was almost a year ago, or maybe it was over a year ago) anyway, it was his birthday, so I felt it was my duty from the heavens to show him a good time. I mean we made out and that was it. Even before we made out, I was acting weird cause he was dancing with me and I normally don’t dance with strangers. Yet, I allowed for it to happen, due to the fact that I caught him checking me out on more than one occasion and when he did approach he was really sweet about it. Yet, at the end of the night he bounced without even a goodbye. Karma’s a bitch , cause I ended up running into him this morning, yet last night I had sent him a message via facebook stating that I did not appreciate that, especially after he stuck his tongue down my throat. I mean, I did tell him on the dance floor that he wasn’t going to score, so maybe that was why he left. I don’t know. Nor do I care to know, cause I am all about being casual, yet that was just wrong. SO, I ask myself why is it that I attract these boys, and when actually do boys become men? because I have dated the 35 year olds, and they seem to be more of a boy then the 28 year olds.  I know that I am LOVE, so I will attract love, yet universe I ask you, when?

As far as the boy/man that I am interested in, we had beers the other day, and when we were chatting I think we both could almost sense the chemistry between the two of us. Yet, nothing can come of it now. We are both dealing with other bullshit that just makes it impossible for us to be together at this moment. So, I spend as much time as I can with him, until we can truly decide if this attraction is really worth investing in. I believe he already knows how I feel about him, but I wonder if I should continue to play it mellow or if i should throw all the ball in the court? When it comes to relationships are you the slow and easy or fast and situated type?

Any Form

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listening to a beautiful man’s music, i mean a truly beautiful man. I have encountered men/boys that are trying to be beautiful or whom are physically beautiful, yet lack the personality to be considered beautiful even to the gods and goddesses. I recently met this divine creature and am spell bound. I mean, seriously spell bound. He has magical eyes and magic in his eyes. the 2nd day we met, he commented on how we both have fangs, then he proceeded to give me a piece of his ART. I am truly inspired. I leave it at that. I am optimistic that we shall be friends throughout space and time. It is bit of fresh air to my soul to meet someone with many talents, showing the world love, and to accept my love and be completely flattered by it.

xoxohm*

Latoya Simone