Use Me

This song has been on repeat in the BFLYsouljah household for about three weeks. I am obsessed with choreographing a video for this. I went to see what was out there and I fell upon the two below, which are the best by far! Trust me, I’ve done the leg work.

The male video is so on point and not only is it badass they are cute as well.

Yet, like expected the ladies hold it down and blow the male choreography out of the water.

Whenever I listen to this song I think of the man who holds my heart, thoughts, soul, and body. I have tried to date other men, and even though this man and I have yet to date and are just friends, I can only fantasize about how beautiful it will be when the walls come down and we do consummate  our love. I can imagine we will both be so nervous…

I intend on performing my choreography for him, either to this song or “Arch N Point.”

Which choreography do you like the best?

“Use Me” By. Miguel

Sedate me… Salacious, salty, & sweet.
I’m overwhelmed by tasty thoughts of you.
Daydream… my body’s waving a white flag.
Take me, yeah, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down.
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Sensation… as I place my tongue on your lips
You overwhelmed by everything I do, oh!
Curse me, yea, with such a beautiful nightmare!
Don’t wake me! Yea, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound, yea,
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down, yea!
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Blissful collision as our bodies tangle, intertwine
Biting your lip (uh-uh) baby, put me inside
Crucified thoughts, tender moments on a ricochet
Purging my mind of the power I own
Fall into forever. Just forgive me.
I was faithless. Danger in your eyes.
Baby, you can devour me!
Defile me, yeah!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
If you’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.
[x3]
Use me.

what is love?

Today has been a day of testament to my patience. instead of bogging you down with the details, let’s just say that boy am I thankful that I am such an optimistic creature. On another note,  I have decided that instead of allowing myself to lie about my feelings to a certain someone, that I would call him and tell him directly. Well, I got his voicemail. I left him a message to call me, yet who knows if I will hear back from him today. ANY-way, I have not finished the dress. This is part of my frustration with the mess of life that has transpired today. I will be done by the beginning of next week, yet it still puts me a week behind. Especially because school starts on Monday. I am sometimes really envious of the people that everything just falls into place so easy for them. It has always been a struggle for me. Let’s talk about love for instance, it seems I attract boys, could it be cause I look a lot younger than I actually am, or is it that the male species seems to mature at a slower pace then womyn? I made out with a BOY on Monday (which is a big thing for me, cause the last time I really made out with someone was almost a year ago, or maybe it was over a year ago) anyway, it was his birthday, so I felt it was my duty from the heavens to show him a good time. I mean we made out and that was it. Even before we made out, I was acting weird cause he was dancing with me and I normally don’t dance with strangers. Yet, I allowed for it to happen, due to the fact that I caught him checking me out on more than one occasion and when he did approach he was really sweet about it. Yet, at the end of the night he bounced without even a goodbye. Karma’s a bitch , cause I ended up running into him this morning, yet last night I had sent him a message via facebook stating that I did not appreciate that, especially after he stuck his tongue down my throat. I mean, I did tell him on the dance floor that he wasn’t going to score, so maybe that was why he left. I don’t know. Nor do I care to know, cause I am all about being casual, yet that was just wrong. SO, I ask myself why is it that I attract these boys, and when actually do boys become men? because I have dated the 35 year olds, and they seem to be more of a boy then the 28 year olds.  I know that I am LOVE, so I will attract love, yet universe I ask you, when?

As far as the boy/man that I am interested in, we had beers the other day, and when we were chatting I think we both could almost sense the chemistry between the two of us. Yet, nothing can come of it now. We are both dealing with other bullshit that just makes it impossible for us to be together at this moment. So, I spend as much time as I can with him, until we can truly decide if this attraction is really worth investing in. I believe he already knows how I feel about him, but I wonder if I should continue to play it mellow or if i should throw all the ball in the court? When it comes to relationships are you the slow and easy or fast and situated type?

Beautiful inspiration

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This week alone, I have gone out dancing twice! I remember before Orion, I would go out dancing almost every single night. I love to dance, it is also one of the reasons I design. I love the way the human body moves in material. I especially enjoy the different forms of dance, which i partake in, belly dancing, break dancing, butoh, ballet, tap, choreography etc. Most of all I love music and being able to express myself through movement is part of what keeps me creating. The meaning of B.F.L.Y.souljah is Beautiful, Flowing, Luxurious Youthful soulJAH’s. Dancing is one of the way’s that I embody all the elements of a BFLYsouljah! Amongst the world we have many talents, yet below are some of the talents that got me started in my career as a designer.

Mya

Ciara

one and only Aaliyah

Miss Jackson