I originally started this post about a man, yet, what I would like to bring to light is the interracial couples that I have experienced through the media. I state this because, I grew up in Hawaii,where it is common to see this. Yet, now living in Seattle I wonder how I am perceived because, I tend to attract caucasian males. I mean, I wonder if Black men are intimidated by me? I don’t discriminate, but, I tend to go for dark hair, tan/dark skin. I mean I do have a thing for Red Heads! Which is quite the opposite of what I usually look for. So, it comes as no surprise that the most recent attraction I have made happens to be a Redhead. Yet, this one comes with some strange requests (which don’t they all).
So, I am a bit lost as to what I am suppose to think about my encounter with a man that I have been crushing on for awhile. He gave me his number, he told me to call. We spoke, he just encountered a crazy girl. So, he needs a week break from hanging out with anyone. He told me that the first time he saw me he thought, Damn, she is yummy. Which is exactly what I am. I mean, he was so honest with me. I like that about him. I like many things about him, yet, I don’t even know him and I am extremely frightened to get to know him. I have extremely bad anxiety, so I tend to take anxiety medication. I didn’t take it this weekend, and I left him a message stating that I thought it was unfair of him to categorize me with the crazy girl. I mean he is the one whom gave me his number and then he doesn’t want to hang out? No offense to me, he says. Which if I hadn’t just got out of a year of longing and pining for a boy who pretty much led me on a wild goose chase, I wouldn’t be so crazy. I don’t even know if I am being crazy or if this is a valid reason to be suspicious of him. So, I sit in the coffee shop, wondering if I shouldn’t even try to have anything with him. DAMN, am I screwed when it comes to men?
Then, I suppose we as woman are all a bit screwed when it comes to dating. Men, are so indecisive.
It just so happens that I could see a future with him. He has a lot going for him; he owns/inherited his business. He works a lot. He is older (32 to be exact) He is quite flirtatious. He practices yoga. He likes to chill and relax. He tends to stay home a lot, and do domestic things. Yet, I am just a bit nervous about the whole, crazy girl situation and him putting me in that box. I hate being put in a box and I hate when I am not given a fair chance. So, we are back to the drawing board. Well, it is time for me to do homework.