Use Me

This song has been on repeat in the BFLYsouljah household for about three weeks. I am obsessed with choreographing a video for this. I went to see what was out there and I fell upon the two below, which are the best by far! Trust me, I’ve done the leg work.

The male video is so on point and not only is it badass they are cute as well.

Yet, like expected the ladies hold it down and blow the male choreography out of the water.

Whenever I listen to this song I think of the man who holds my heart, thoughts, soul, and body. I have tried to date other men, and even though this man and I have yet to date and are just friends, I can only fantasize about how beautiful it will be when the walls come down and we do consummate  our love. I can imagine we will both be so nervous…

I intend on performing my choreography for him, either to this song or “Arch N Point.”

Which choreography do you like the best?

“Use Me” By. Miguel

Sedate me… Salacious, salty, & sweet.
I’m overwhelmed by tasty thoughts of you.
Daydream… my body’s waving a white flag.
Take me, yeah, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down.
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Sensation… as I place my tongue on your lips
You overwhelmed by everything I do, oh!
Curse me, yea, with such a beautiful nightmare!
Don’t wake me! Yea, baby!

Now, I know I’m sober.
It’s just so profound, yea,
That every wall I built up
Has come crashing down, yea!
Don’t the waves pull the sand?
Don’t the moon pull a tide, baby?
Well, I’m yours! Yea!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
That we’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.

Blissful collision as our bodies tangle, intertwine
Biting your lip (uh-uh) baby, put me inside
Crucified thoughts, tender moments on a ricochet
Purging my mind of the power I own
Fall into forever. Just forgive me.
I was faithless. Danger in your eyes.
Baby, you can devour me!
Defile me, yeah!

Use me. Wanna give you control
With the lights on
If I could just let go…
Forgive me. It’s the very first time
And I’m nervous. Can I trust you, huh?

Trust me, while I take this off
With the lights on cause it turns me on.
If you’re nervous, just let me show
You how to touch me. I could teach you, yea.
[x3]
Use me.

Feeling Brand New

This post was started on July 17th 2012 and has been sitting in the drafts folder collecting dust.

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I have finally done it! I bought my domain and I am now on to buy my small business license for my business! I am super stoked to be doing what I am doing in my life. I have seen the other side of the story, through the many friends I have in my life. I know that I think a lot about how hard it is to do the things I do. Yet, the people in my life that know me, know really well that I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love that I am instilling in my child that you need to work hard, to gain what it is that you need and want in life. I love learning, I love creating, I love living. In everything that I am doing, I know that I am giving my all. It has been a rough couple of weeks, due to me being sick the week before school started and then my son being sick for a week. We are better at the Shaw residence, yet it was definitely a wake up call to live life to the fullest. I am leaving you with inspiration from the many beautiful inspiring women/artist , yet I will be back with fashion updates, muses, love interests and the BFLY designs progress.

Update:

May 10, 2013 The business is slowing taking a back burner to school. Seattle University is an extremely intense school and given that I also work part-time at a brick and mortar sustainable urban fashion and children toy shop it makes sense that things are slowly becoming fruitful. Either way, I must say I am extremely happy with the path that I have chosen for myself. Given that I have such ambition it has been extremely difficult to date, most men are either threatened/ intimidated by me or lack ambition thus leaving it near null  in respect to me even wasting my time going on a date with. I would love to have someone to ride alongside with. Preferably a man who has a drive to succeed in his passion, college educated/street educated because he needs to be able to stimulate more than just my body. I must be attracted to him, and he must be about being fit, healthy, and athletic. I think that I have manifested one, yet I haven’t dated anyone seriously in so long that it scares me to allow anyone into my life, non the less into my son’s life. I suppose that when and if it’s right it would be best to just offer it up to the universe. Orion has just turned 5 and will be starting kindergarten in about 4 months! Damn time flies. I can’t believe that he will be soon out of Preschool! He got accepted to Bright Water, which is a Waldorf Academy and I am extremely excited that we have this opportunity. It seems that things are coming into place. How are you transitioning into spring?

xoxo

Latoya aka BFLYsouljah

Luxurious comfort

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It seems that I have been obsessed with chaise lounges for an extremely long time. I collected these photos a few years back, adding them to my inspiration folder. To my surprise I fell upon a craigslist add selling a chaise couch with ottoman, microsuede chocolate brown. I currently have a chocolate brown sofa. This combination is dynamic and yet I still feel as though I may benefit more from searching for a stand alone chaise, like the ones shown below.

Luxurious comfort

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What are your thoughts? Do you prefer stand alone chaise’s? or ones entwined into a couch?

words

Aside

words strewn across a paper

none greater than the sounds of your voice

melancholy

drowned in vats of wine

clouded illusion through the haze

warmth lost from the absence of your touch

the fire has dwindled into a mere flicker

we once thrived in the others presence

where has the love gone, I still feel it

foolishly I cling, shreds of hope

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xox{ohm}

-Latoya aka BFLYsouljah

Your one of my “Angels”

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Light reflects from your shadow
It is more than I thought could exist
You move through the room
Like breathing was easy
If someone believed me

They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
As in love with you as I am
They would be
In love, love, love

And everyday
I’m learning about you
The things that no one else sees
And the end comes too soon
Like dreaming of angels

And leaving without them
And leaving without them

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love
Love, love, love
Love, love, love

And with words unspoken
A silent devotion
I know you know what I mean
And the end is unknown
But I think I’m ready
As long as you’re with me

Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love with you as I am
Being
As in love, love, love

*dedicated to ATF

Designing a new/old ME

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::the new do::

In early November 2012,  I took a huge step in my school life, and future career…I added another Degree onto my course load. Given that I am attaining a Bachelor in Business Marketing from Albers School of Business and Economics at Seattle University, I couldn’t double major, since my other BA will be in Digital Design from The school of Fine Arts!!!! I am so excited to take my online presence to the next level, and to help the other artist that need web design, digital design help. I know this is a really BIG step, yet it is the BEST step to aid in my future career. I have been in love with Graphic Design, since the Art Institute days (Oh, so long ago). Yet, I went with the Fashion Degree, because lets just state the obvious, I LOVE and more than I’d like to admit LIVE for FASHION!  So, really it was inevitable that I add this to the list of skills that are going to aid in my successes and happiness in life.

I am now in my first quarter as a Digital Design student. The excitement that exudes from the reality that this will be a great asset to my career is plaguing me with doubt, due to being away from the art world for so SO so long. Intimidation is to say the least of what I feel. I feel a bit inadequate, just from the mere fact that my advisor is such a well renowned artist in Seattle, Chicago, Berlin and NY. He is quite amazing; YOU would be amazed. Yet, I am channeling this inadequacy towards the realization that he is teaching me the fruits of his knowledge.

This quarter I am taking digital photography, it reminds me of how much I love to take photos. I so wish I still had my Nikon Nikomat. At least I have my Minolta SrT101. I have film in it that needs to be developed, oh how I wish to develop it myself (side note; spring break project). I shall leave you with some mostly unedited photos taken within the last month. Be on the lookout for digital updates to the blog.

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all photos taken by me, copyright 2013
XOX{ohm}
Glitter and Buttterfly kisses
-Latoya aka BFLYsouljah aka BFLY mama

Distinguished Woman

Distinguished Woman
It has been a very epic fall into the Autumn chill here in Seattle. I have made my shorts last, by wearing tights, yet soon I will no longer be able to do such a thing. So, here is my latest inspiring polyvore board. I absolutely love this Burberry Prorsum trench coat! It falls into the new, HOT burgundy trend, yet still holds it’s own as a classic, that will forever be timeless. I envision wearing little to nothing underneath the trench with the must have Givenchy Boots. I absolutely must have them, do you think Santa will bring them to me? I have been an extremely good girl this year. I love the contrast of the turquoise, sea green clutch. The necklace begs to be seen with my little black slip dress, that is in creation. I am finding much needed inspiration in the online realm, and plan on taking my skills to the next level. There will be a post soon, about my grand scheme and exciting new plans. Until then, What do you most covet this fall? Leave your comments below, I really do love to hear what it is that is trending in your realm.
XOX{ohm}
Glitter and Buttterfly kisses
-Latoya aka BFLYsouljah aka BFLY mama